I have been working as an entrenpeneur for 8 years! When I didn't know much, I struggles less than I struggle now. But, I was driven! I had a passion and I knew what I was meant to do. And people found me and I don't know how. It was amazing.
Fast forward to 2018. Juniper was a year old. And I felt this impression I needed to get Infusionsoft. So I did. And what that pushed me to do was create a website and start scheduling appointments again. I created Balance For Birth. I even had a table at the energy healing conference and wow that was a growing experience.
Fall of 2018 I signed up for the Confident Coaching Academy with Kuschla Chadwick. And I gained some valuable skills of interviewing people, doing mini-coaching calls, starting to create programs. I got really close with some people. REALLY close. After 3 months of non-stop calls and not making much, I fell. Meaning, I lost the energy and drive. At the same time, I became pregnant with River and the pregnancy used my extra energy.
What kept me going was going to Tammy Ward's retreat Feb 2019. And then April 2019. I met so many amazing like-minded people. The networking and resources alone made the money worth it. It was also such a huge healing experience. I started having help with my website from the amazing Sarah- and did not have the funds to continue it.
Thanksgiving, I went on a FB event and talked about foot zoning and found one of my favorite clients.
December before Christmas of 2019, I went to a yoga class and met Rachel Hendrickson. Creighton bought us childcare for January and that boosted me. And it helped kindle a strong friendship with Rachel. I could see from the beginning that she is a force to be reckoned with. And I could feel the struggle. There were days that I felt so down.
I had my baby Last June and I knew I needed to slow down. I kept going anf going up until the day I gave birth. I had a full day planned that day- and my sweet baby boy graced this world with a resounding, "I cannot wait anymore". I took about 2 months to recover. But did some sessions here and there. Rachel and I were texting and she suggested we start doing workshops. And we did! Together it always came together so well! We did 5 workshops in a row every month. That is experience that is precious. The workshops where I felt drained and the ones I felt alive. The only difference- self-care the day of. We did these workshops out of our houses. The first one, we only had 2 people. But we rocked it. And we kind of collided and joined the same path.
We joined the Kyngdom Organizer, which fell right into our laps. After February 2020, we decided to make them quarterly with monthly zoom meetings. Then just quarterly. And we are discovering what we are to do. What our individual missions are. We went to Julie Maye's retreat and she attracts people. And sometimes I feel like the shadow that goes unnoticed. But at the same time, I am finding my voice. I am using my voice. I will be heard. That is something I am progressing with. I figured out what my mission is. To create my own healing program. with a general certification followed by a Birth worker cetification. There is no one who can or will do this like me. That became really clear.
The toughest part is making it all happen. Because I feel the resistance. Not only am I making charts, I am going to be writing a manual. Its basically a big book. I have 4 kids ages 6, 4, 2, and 8 months now. The biggest challenge has been time and having a proper workspace. I am in this phase of life where I am surrounded kids. And I love my kids. But I also lose it with them too. One for of resistance is doubting my capabilites when I see others doing what i want to do. or even what I am doing already. Their events, speaking opportunities, social media engagement, coaching programs, names of their groups. Its getting to me. I feel defeated. How do I possibly make this all happen? There is a time and a flow. How do I live up to my highest potential?
I know what I need to do in a day, but with a cute boy who hasn't been sleeping the best schedule, I also get tired and sleepy. My heart feels depressed and discouraged. So many women who came to elizabeth's mothers blessing shows so much and they were so incitement and so gifted. It caused me to doubt my gifts.
I still move forward one step at a time. I can do this. With God, anything is possible.
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