Dear God,

How do I keep going? I do i make it tomorrow? Why should I keep trying? It doesn't get easier. Creighton is just as much of a jerk as he used to be. He hasn't changed. Not really. He is still unsatisfied, negative, and disrespectful. More than that, he is teaching the girls to be disrespecful. My heart is aching. Lily and Iris wer pauching and mocking my pain. Maybe not intentionally and they probably didn't know howw to deal with the conflict. But it still hurt. Where were you? Why didn't you stop it? This was a TERRIBLE night. I acknowledge I messed up too. I said terrible things and kicked and bit C. He kepy pushing my buttons when I was past my limit over and over again. It makes me not want to be a wife or mom or anything like it. I feel alone and abandoned. Is it the right time to leave this marriage?

Dear Suzie,

It is not the right time yet. It can get better. That's why we have the atonement. So your past can be the past. THe only thing you can change is the future. Your daughters don't understand. Please don't personalize it. You can talk to them tomorrow.