Spartan RAce- finish post

 

Dear lord,

 

I’m coming to thee to receive an answer, or at least guidance. There is a Spartan race I signed up for and… All the old things are coming up.

 

It feels completely inconvenient

 

Creighton hurt his back. Jason is here. Creighton is grumpy.  Just a lot of negativity I feel completely incircled by. I Could also do it on Sunday, but I know it is the sabbath. If I were to look back to my upbringing, it’s a sport and its on Sunday, and you don’t do sports on Sunday.

 

I feel anger and frustration with Creighton at the moment. He can act pretty rude. But I also know that there is a portion I am accountable with. I feel ALL the feels. Like he is resenting me or something. I think whats coming up is fear, fear that I can’t do what I want or else it will have negative repercussions. But if I don’t, I’ll know I didn’t act on behalf of what feels most right.

 

What would thou hast me do?

 

Go in the morning, because its not the sabbath day.

Don’t go and try to get a refund or credit

Don’t go tomorrow and go in Sunday?  I need to know now because I’d have to leave in 6 hours.

 

Mt daughter, I see you are torn.

Well... I DID go on Saturday and There was no race for the 10k. It was only on Sunday. So i stopped and worked out at a cute place in Kaysville recommended to me by Angela. And after lots of prayer and questioning, the same answer came over and over. Just go. "If I were you, I would go". So I woke up at 6 AM and went to snow Basin for this run. I got there a bit late, cut in line and they let me through. I didn't make it to the starting line by 8:30 AM. But got there shortly there after. And I'll tell you. This race was difficult, From the very beginning. My stomach was not totally okay. It felt weak. This made the obstacle courses challenging. This "run" was more of a hike. It was tracking up steep and long trails to an obstacle course that presented another challenge when I was exhausted already. If I couldn't complete one, I had to do the penalty lap, so probably ran more than 6 miles. And I forgot you could get help.. My favorite obstacles are the ones that use my legs AND arms. 

I got to the rope to climb up, and I couldn't do it. I lost at least 10-15 minutes. And this point I wanted to cry. Because..... burpees. They had to be "proper" to count. I must have done at least 40.